new year new change.

New Year New change, why should i hold on?Sometimes when you love something too much you just HAVE to let go. its been almost two years and its going absolutely no where.
1. there is someone else.
2. you live in texas.
3. im confused on who you love.

i dont want to be in love with someone who is loves me but is in love with someone else.its heartbreaking. i just want you, but i cant. i never will. and its a new year .... why repeat the new year with this year, i should move on. i need to move on.
i need to fall in love with someone else. but know this there is no one i can find like you and thats all i will be searching for..... is you. but i need to let go of YOU. find a new YOU. find someone else who can love me the way i want to be loved with no other distractions or intrupptions in the way.

trust me this will be hard for me,probabaly the hardest thing. ive been trying to give up on you for so long. its been too long trying. just too long. so i think ive decided, its a new year i need change and i need a new years revolution.

and my new years revolution is to let go of you. :( its for the best for me.i cant continue you my life always wondering and wanting you and loving you with nothing being done. i dont think you understand how big of a deal this is to me because you were the one...the one i want to talk to everyday and be with everyday and be completely myself and tell EVERYTHING to. but now your going to be gone and its just going to be me. i wish i didnt have to this but its REALLY time. im probably going to loose myself for the new year and fall apart because im giving up on you and loosing the person i love and who has my heart.


im sorry.