Confession

YES. I am emotionally damaged, but yet I still believe in true love.
I tell myself 'one day' It will be just like the movies.
Of course I deny love all the time because ... Well I am emotionally damaged.
Haha I don't really know the reason, but that's the genereal idea of why my reason is.
I want love so bad it makes want to cry. I hate waiting I just want it too happen.
I see a boy I think is cute I just want him to be the one.
But it's not like that. He has to be my friend first, bestfriend.
That's easy all my guys are friends.
I want someone I can call anytime, or send just call to tell them something the moment it happens because they are the first person I want to tell.
Yup; I admit I am a hopeless romantic. I want it to be just like the movies.
Something is wrong with me, but all I can do is be happy with my life now.
And be even happier when my life becomes a movie, if that will ever happen.
You see, I'm always second best. I make myself second best. I do this to myself.
That's my fault and I know it's wrong, but that's how I learn, the hard way.
I set myself up for heartbreak when that's the thing I try to avoid but yet I know how to get thru the cracks.
I'm something aren't I?
Who wants to deal with this? I expect so much but want so little.
The feeling of love.
Corny..yes.