change for the present from the past.

i havent changed for the better.
ive changed for the worse.

i cant believe what ive done to myself?
to make myself unhappy, to make myself not understandable and to make myself for me.

i feel. i feel myself locked up, screaming wanting to come out.
but i wouldnt let myself out because i wanted to have friends.
but friends where they didnt make fun of me.
for how i look, for how i smile, for how i looked like a kid.

people liked me for who i am.
idk why and how i just changed. i let them get to me.

i shouldnt have, its their way of loving me.
why didnt i realize and see. how did i not see.

im just so happy i know, im just so happy i can come back and be myself.
im DONE with that depression.

i dont want to change for i thought to make myself a better person, a 'grown up' person.
but anything this change has brought the worse in me, and i was blind to see.

im so glad i can come out. & just be me.
like im willing to give up the change me for the old me.

its just something i need to let go...it hasnt brought good to me or others.

its so weird how the things people kept a secret and just say it and be blunt you learn more about life and the different views of the world.
im just so happy i can be myself again!

instead of not caring..i want to care(:
life is an amzing gift if you open it all the way.