Thru the pain.

Thru the pain, i feel happy.
Thru the pain, the bad is gone.
I need to feel happiness through a person.
through the opposite sex.
No more flaws.
I need to see thru the pain.

internal.

Internally I'm dying inside.
Internally I only have myself,
Sadly I only have myself externally too.
Internally I am sad, but its slowly showing externally.
I am becoming weaker inside and becoming weaker on the outside.
I have came to the point where crying is my relief, and crying is my fear.
The fear of showing weakness externally gives me even more weakness internally.
I need strength.
I need love, I need more of it to feel happy and above.
I am below it all, waiting something to let me in to the top.
Patience is the key.
My patience is loosing.
Impatience is winning, internally and externally.

Thank you writing for letting me relieve myself, instead of showing my fear!